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Battle of the Mind

Trapped in confusion and trapped in insecurity – I slowly began to love myself.
“Would they talk to me?” or “Did I even cross their mind?

I felt so invisible, without their validity.
Were these tears fragments of a distant past?
One where I was beseeching for a place in a society that I hadn’t known?    

With courage, I braved this emotional suffering and pain. But, there was something missing – I didn't love myself.”

Feelings of inadequacy were always present and I couldn't understand why.
Yet, I couldn't get myself to get them to like me; or even accept me.    

Did I do anything wrong, I had no insight. But, one thing was that I just wanted them to like me.
My confidence was low and I had limited beliefs about myself.
Did this reflect in my talks, I didn't think so…

 I didn't connect with others and I knew I had this social anxiety building up inside of me.
All of this changed though; the day I began to Love myself.
I just woke up one fine day and loved myself: faults and hiccups and all that I was.

I suddenly saw myself in a new light; the only person who didn't accept me 'for me' and I was only pulling myself down
I stopped craving for a different life and being a different version of myself.

As I started to love myself,
 I began to accept that I could only be imperfectly perfect and  could just be myself!



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